Many parents don’t get the choice to find out the reason for their babies death. Liberty’s placenta died early. If that had been spotted, it’s likely that Liberty would have been born safe and well.

I try to make my peace with it on a daily basis, but I can tell you that it was not an easy task to give away my travel cot. No, I am not ‘done’. I do not feel ‘done’. And I never will.

It was my youngest’s Rocco’s first day at school this week. A hard week for parents of children who should be present, but are not. I appreciated Rob Delaney's tweet on this, because I think about Liberty each year school starts.

Last weekend I met Lizzie Simmonds’ Mum at dinner. Her mum and my mum are friends. They seem to think Lizzie and I have common ground; we are both strong, confident, hard working, resilient… survivors even. It got me thinking about how I’d been swimming often, but not really swum – hard – without fear, since Liberty died.

I did not relax and enjoy my two pregnancies that followed Liberty’s Stillbirth. I just about survived them..

When I came back from America with the record, we sat together and listened. Rocco started crying in a sweet, quiet way, and said ‘I wish she was here’. Cosmo calmly explained that ‘We do too, but that’s OK’

For months after Liberty’s death, whilst I was, (unusually), walking around my neighbourhood during the working week daytime, I would encounter and sometimes be run off the road by ‘Moody Mum with Pushchair’…

It seems clear that if your dead loved one is your child, it’s not going to be within your gift to ‘move on’. I didn’t know about this whole concept of ‘Continuing Bond’, when I wrote ‘I Can Love You From Here’, but I had already figured out that finding a way to actively continue my relationship with Liberty was my only option.

If you don’t know about baby loss and you don’t know about complex grief, you would expect yourself, or parents whom you know have lost a baby, to display and experience grief in a different way. I think it would be helpful if everyone considered this whole topic of grief following baby loss a little further.